I am writing to you while watching some Lily Melrose vlogs. It's friday, so I have some free time for myself. This week was quite hectic and to be honest, I don't remember much of it, because of the stress and anxiety. It happens to me quite a lot. I just forget things and..it sucks. The only thing I can remember is when I did yoga with my friend M. I love yoga, it's very calming and if you are very stressed, it will definitely help you. After the yoga we meditated for a little.
As I said, this week was hectic and I realized a lot of things. As I was waiting for my friend to get out of the toilet the other day, I realized that this is my new reality. These people. This school. This place. To tell you the truth, I was sad about that. Do you know why? Some people in my class hate me. It's not like I care a lot or anything, it just bothers me how they are laughing at me and hating on me FOR NO REASON. Do I deserve it or what? I don't understand. It is acutally funny, because these people don't even know me.
But on the other hand, I think I can deal with it. I have my friends and I am happy with them. Why would I waste my time on someone who doesn't deserve it? I have other impornant things to do.
Another thing is, I will take extra french classes. I signed up on Thursday with my friend M and her boyfriend A. I can't wait. The classes start on 29th of September. I really do need to improve my French.
I remember walking down the city. I don't know the day or time. I just remember walking down the street and watching other people. I was looking at the trees and the leaves, kind of hoping them to change colours soon. I was watching people in hoodies. I felt autumn in the air. I felt happiness in my heart and smile on my face. And in that moment, I wasn't afraid of depression and school anymore. It was just me living in the moment and breathing fresh air.
How are you doing lately? How's school? Let me know!